Evendays

I have trouble knowing what is in my control and what isn’t. Sure, in a sense, nothing is under my control. Plans for the future, even what we’ll do tomorrow, are but penciled-in dates, and can be erased, changed or forgotten in a literal lack-of heartbeat.

Because of the above, when faced with a challenge, I struggle with reasonable expectations. How great is my influence in this particular situation? How much does the effectiveness of “the thing” depend on me?

My dreams during early ministry were so large that they were, in fact, illusions. I can remember crying on my “old” friend Clifford’s shoulder while he counseled: You only spend 3 hours a week max with these kids. You are but one influence among hundreds. Get some perspective.

Perspective: Seeing people and situations from God’s point of view; Preaching big things because you believe the God of the message, however he works, transforms people through it.

These days, I tend to see my sphere of influence as quite small, sometimes microscopic. Looking within doesn’t offer perspective. But what does God see?

I want to hold on to dreams that come from above. For people change. Just look at what God’s done in you.